is the key to a long and happy life. Sometimes in life we have to make some tough decisions, we may not like them for whatever reasons and we may be worried about the indirect impact it my have but we have to be true to ourselves utmost and foremost first.
For me personally it was taking a good hard look at myself and my life and deciding what it was that I wanted out of my life. I did that recently and have started implementing changes that I’ll benefit from. Some were easy changes, some not so easy but all relevant to my plan to change my life and for the better. Now I know this is going to sound like I’m being tough of myself and I know what I’m entitled to grieve for how ever long it takes me but I’d got to the stage where I was sick to death of myself and my grieving for that matter. It’s exhausting, I never realised how much so and how it impacts your daily life and even those around you. Now I don’t care if it made others feel uncomfortable, that was thier problem. I had enough of my own thank you very much. But enough was enough and so I stepped out from under my dark cloud and into the sunshine. This is my life and I’ll decide how I will and won’t live it, not circumstances, but me!
So I’ve made some changes both personally and professionally towards achieving my original goal. That way, I can be the person I want to be and do the things I want to do without anymore excuses. I’m going to be slowing down to a nice and steady pace for the duration of this year and then re-evaluate where I’m at and set myself new goals for the new year.
On Friday I received the shock of my life with some health news I wasn’t expecting. It’s nothing to be concerned about, but I still had to make a decision that didn’t necessarily come easy to me. Daniel says that the right decisions are sometimes the hardest decisions to make and he’s right, so very very right. Just like last year with Mum. I had to make two very big decisions that I’ve not talked about here and nor will I that shook me to my core. They were decisions I never thought in a million years I would have to make or that I ever had the right to make. I know they were for the right reasons but that didn’t make them any easier to make at the time. So my recent decision is going to involve a simple day procedure and will slow my health and fitness goals down a little but that’s life. I’m just going to roll with the punches and make the best of my current circumstances.
Life is so tricky some times, more so than others. But that’s what makes us who we are I guess. The good, the bad, the ugly, they’re all life experiences we need to experience to break us down and build us up so that we can be all that we were intended to be. Charles Jones quoted this and it’s one of my all time favourite quotes. It’s even on my inspirational wall of which I have almost finished. Once it’s done I’ll photograph it and post it up for all to see what mine looks like.
That’s it for today. I found out during the week that I have a month to finish my Cert IV in Fitness (Personal Training). So on that note I better get going and hit the books.
