What happened to Monday? Where did you go, have you seen it? LOL!! I can’t believe how quickly today went and I’m only now sitting down to blog.
Short Term Goal #1was a bit of a disappointment but in retrospect I should’ve known better. My uniform wasn’t as lose as I had hoped. In retrospect I should’ve known better, when we lose body fat it comes off the upper body first then the lower body. Considering how much of it I currently have it’s no wonder my pants weren’t that lose. Not to worry though, I still tried my very best and although I didn’t get the desired outcome it was still a step in the right direction.
So to get things moving along a little more quickly I’ve increased my daily caloric intake at breakfast and increased my afternoon cardio from 30 minutes to 45 minutes. That should do it! Increasing my afternoon cardio will also help in preparation for Queen of the Lake. So it’s a win win situation from where I sit.
I survived my first day back at work and managed to get all but one snack in today. My water which usually lags behind is right on target and already I’ve consumed 3.5 litres, .5 litres to go before bed. Easy peasy. LOL!! I’ve still got a bit more sorting out of my time management but by the end of the week I should have everything running like clock work.
Mum’s things are still boxed up here in my office. I was supposed to deal with that over my holidays but I just couldn’t , letting go of the last of her physical existance is going to be extremely difficult but a task to be done none the less. It’s going to hurt as I let go of everything that looks, feels and even smells like her but it’s a part of the grieving process. I know they’re only material things but whilst they’re here she’s still here in a way. I’m scared to let go of her things because then her physical existence is erased from earth and that’s something only someone who’s lost a loved one can understand. I feel sick to the stomach just thinking about it but it’s been playing on my mind these last few days where as before it wasn’t. Maybe I’m being prompted to do something about it I don’t know. I just know that I want her back, back here with me.
I’m going to leave it there for today. I’m sure you understand.
Lia xxx
“Strength does not come from physical capacity.
It comes from an indomitable will.”
– Mahatma Gandhi
